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Monday, November 16th, 2009
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4:13 pm - Is this the end?
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I think it might be time that I end the life of this account. Thinking much the same of my Myspace.
Facebook and Twitter are my two preferred socialite sites. Many of the people I talk to already have me on one of those.
If you don't... and you want to follow me somewhere else, check me out there. I can easily be found by searching Josh McNitt.
But I think sometime in the next couple of days, I will close this account.
Really, I don't use it. Yall wont even notice I'm gone.
current mood:  nostalgic
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| Saturday, October 31st, 2009
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10:44 pm
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Happy Halloween or Samhain or whatever it is you celebrate.
"Happy Homework Night" is what I'm callin' it. Because that's what I've been doing.
Don't get me wrong, I totally rocked out some Left 4 Dead earlier, killed a few zombies between work and schoolwork, but that is all. I even bought a whole buncha candy to give out to kids, since I was going to be home alone anyways.
Only two troupes of Trick-Or-Treaters stopped by. *cue sad face*
But the little asian kid dressed up Captain America made my evening.
I need to socialize more. I spend a lot of time at the computer doing schoolwork and such, and I feel like my social-life is suffering for it. Honestly, outside of work, I have no social life.
I need to work on that.
Also, I have tea. I like tea.
Now you know I'm not dead.
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| Wednesday, July 29th, 2009
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10:21 pm
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Life has been busy lately. Mostly with work... which hasn't been easy since nightmares seem to be coming at me from all angles. And lately they've been sharing a theme:
Dying alone. Not like, me being old and dying and not having anyone there in my last moments (though part of me thinks these nightmares might suggest my subconscious fears just that) but things like... oh... being ejected into space, slowly reeling, waiting for my suit's oxygen to run out. Or being trapped beneath... something, and taking days to finally die of dehydration.
First off: How the fuck does a dream stretch for DAYS? Like, fully realized days. I felt sanity slipping as the days went on and noone came.
But yeah, horrifying shit like that. Leaves me sleep deprived. Same sorta thread running between them, and the loneliness I feel during these dreams is... heartwrenching.
I die in my dreams all the time. But always for a good cause, and I never feel... lost. Hell, they tend to be GOOD dreams. But this is something I can't take. I get so stressed about sleep, that I can't fall asleep at a decent hour, and when I *do* sleep, it's horrible.
In other news, everything else in life is pretty much the same. I'm getting in better shape, school is swiftly approaching. I'm excited about that.
People at work think I'm awesome/work too hard/need to take vacation before I damage my psyche.
That last one amuses me, but there are people who think I need to take a bit of time off and relax it up.
I think I just need a soft-skinned belly to lie on my head.
Maybe I should do some more reading, I got a passel of space marines wreaking havoc inside a dreen space-ship. And the ass-end of the Allied Space Ship is damned near totally gone. This is gonna be a close one.
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| Friday, June 26th, 2009
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7:05 am
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I sit here, before work, sipping coffee and being relatively bored. I think I'm going crazy, I keep getting up earlier and earlier. Naturally... on my own... before the alarm.
That displeases me.
The workout thing is going pretty good still. I look better now than I have in my whole life. I feel confident about walking around shirtless even. That's exciting.
I haven't been making enough time to hang out with my old housemates. I gotta make sure to go hang out this Sunday. No excuses. And my feelings towards the SCA are confusing. One moment I'm excited about fighting, the next I want to just stop playing altogether.
It's shameful really. I used to feel connected. Integral. Now they get along fine without me. I have work most sundays, so I can't even make the big practices... maybe it's time to turn in my hat. Once school starts anyways, I will probably no longer even be able to make Wednesday practices either.
That's the nature of the beast though. I'm not very good at fighting anyways, I think I need something more structured.
Perhaps I should look into something like Kendo.
Or even Olympic Style fencing... since that's what get me excited about the SCA to begin with.
Then maybe I could renew my friendships.
But really, I just wish I wanted to play still.
Things with Angeline have been figured out. I'm less confused. Not disappointed in the outcome, though I feel it could play more into my favor. I have a good friend, who's not really interested in romanticality. That's groovy, we are still intellectually awesome to put in the same room together. So I'm happy about that.
I just miss kissing. It has been a while.
Tomorrow. Tomorrow I have off.
I'm looking forward to that.
Unless Dana neglected to remove me from the roster tomorrow. Which I will not be pleased with.
We'll find out!
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| Tuesday, June 23rd, 2009
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6:31 pm - Argh, Dames!
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Why do they have to be so confusing?
But perhaps I'm picking up 'mixed' signals that aren't there. Like, they're just normal signals, but my wires are crossed and scrambling them.
GRAR!
I'm not meant for human interaction I think.
Work is going well enough. I get up, I go do it, I come home and fart around on the computer most days. Some days I go hang with peeps, some days I actually make it to fighter practice. Others I don't.
life is lifey.
I thought I had more to say, but it was turning into a bitchpost about my inability to decipher girls. So I erased it.
I did see Terminator: Salvation finally. I liked it. It was fun. Robots are neat.
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| Wednesday, June 3rd, 2009
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8:46 pm
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I have a twitter.
I'm not entirely certain what to do with it though. So far I'm following one friend and two celebrities.
And I blocked a porn bot.
It's like a social videogame. I think I'm winning.
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| Friday, May 29th, 2009
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8:50 am - Boxcar Josh
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Ladies and Gents... This is your good buddy Josh, broadcasting from a new location.
Sure, I'm still in New Mexico.
Sure, I'm still in Albuquerque, New Mexico.
But I'm in an apartment, slightly across town from where I was... living with my baby brother Zach and our bud Yves.
Not too bad.
Here's the skinny on what's been going down over the last couple of weeks:
Apartment Searching: Running around trying to find a place, filling out paperwork and the like, good fun.
Hanging out with Angeline: Been doing a fair amount of this. She's cool, smart, fun, nerdy and we're of similar minds about humor. It's nice being able to hang with someone on the same wavelength.
Helping prepare for, and attending my first burlesque show: Did I mention Angeline is a member of the local troupe? Probably not. But she is, enlisted my help to instill sanity pre-show and to aide in the crafting of pasties. I had much more fun than I originally anticipated, and look forward to more shows.
Work: Yeah, working two jobs means I do a LOT of this. It's getting somewhat tiring. But we keep on keepin' on.
L4D: Left 4 Dead. I play it. Sometimes a lot. I love killin' me some mufuggin' zombies.
I've also finally gotten around to reading the Marvel Civil War (Zomg) and re-re-reading Terry Pratchett's Night Watch.
Seriously, if you haven't read Night Watch... do so. It's my favorite book.
ever.
EVER.
Now if only I could wrangle up a couch, a bed and a drawing table on the cheap. life would be loverly.
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| Tuesday, May 26th, 2009
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3:15 pm - Stolen from Carrie D
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| Wednesday, May 20th, 2009
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11:58 am
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So, what's new? I've been hanging out with a gal quite a bit lately, she's quite a lot of fun, pretty neat. I am also the Employee of the Month at Target. They gave me a shirt and a placard. I'll also be moving into a place with my brother and Yves in the next week or two if things go well. Should be fun.
As the fall draws nearer, I grow increasingly excited about going to school again.
I grow increasingly anxious too. I'm going to school to get a usable set of skills. But at the same time, part of me goes "egads lad, are you sure this is what you want to do?"
Of course, it's not what I want to do for the rest of my life. But I'm trying to sell myself that it'll be something I *can* do reliably.
I would much rather do something creative and artistic (who wouldn't?) but going to school for something like that seems silly. Or rather, it *is* silly. 2 years of being an art student showed me that (granted, maybe being a Fine Arts major rather than something specific like Illustrations adds to this frustration).
It doesn't help that I look around, and all the friends I started school with are graduating. It makes sense though. The reason I kept shifting my major around, the reason I am even now going "are you sure?" is that I'm afraid of being stuck. My friends had a goal, they went for it. I'm so scared of getting stuck doing something I wont find rewarding that I can't make myself stick to my guns.
Maybe my best bet is to stop bitching and over the next year or two as I polish off an associates degree in something marketable... maybe I better just make sure I draw and paint every day. Maybe if I make it routine, like I do my workout, I'll make similar progress. Gods I hope so. I don't want to be that guy that is always unsatisfied and goes from job to job till the end of days. I'm building right up to it.
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| Friday, May 15th, 2009
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11:21 pm - I'm equally Picard and Kirk... I'm concentrated mufuggin' awesome.
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Your results:
You are James T. Kirk (Captain)
| James T. Kirk (Captain) |
| 70% |
| Jean-Luc Picard |
| 70% |
| Leonard McCoy (Bones) |
| 65% |
| Deanna Troi |
| 65% |
| Chekov |
| 55% |
| Mr. Sulu |
| 55% |
| Worf |
| 55% |
| Spock |
| 52% |
| Uhura |
| 50% |
| Beverly Crusher |
| 50% |
| An Expendable Character (Redshirt) |
| 50% |
| Data |
| 46% |
| Will Riker |
| 45% |
| Geordi LaForge |
| 40% |
| Mr. Scott |
| 35% |
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You are often exaggerated and over-the-top
in your speech and expressions.
You are a romantic at heart and a natural leader.
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Click here to take the "Which Star Trek character am I?" quiz...
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| Saturday, March 28th, 2009
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6:58 am
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Noone likes a mooch.
I hate'm. Someone you invite into your home and they take advantage of your hospitality, eating your food, touching shit they shouldn't touch.
The kid is alright, kinda fun to be around at times... but is pretty much devoid of finer qualities. Or much in the way of qualities at all.
Kid. It seems somewhat funny to be referring to a 19 year old as a kid. And it's not physical age that causes me to do so... the pocker is 19 years old but you'd think he was 13.
He lives with his dad. Nothing wrong with that except for the fact that he lives OFF his dad. He has no job - no desire to get one even. "I applied to a couple places and they never called me back." No wonder dude... you have worked 3 (4?) jobs in under a year.
And it seems to me that now, of all times, he should be scraping for anything he can get. Hell, even *I* do not consider myself above working for McDonald's if I had no job. The kid's getting married (bought the ring with *her* money) and... gah.
I see so many like this guy nowadays, it is scary. What I intend to do is tell him he needs to get his shit together or he's not allowed to come over any more.
I have no use for his black-hole shenanigans.
Gah, when did I become a grumpy old man?
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| Tuesday, March 17th, 2009
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9:41 pm
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Ah, St Patrick's day.
I didn't really have more to say about it than that.
I guess "any beer pale enough to be able to be colored green is not a beer worth drinking" could also be said.
Seriously. Dark beer has flavor.
Nothing really new in Joshland. Wake up, eat, work, eat, sleep. Toss reading Sci-Fi novels and playing Video Games in there (as well as watching some bad tv from time to time) and that pretty much sums up my existence.
I've been jotting down ideas like mad, for a D&D campaign I will run. But I'll probably wait to run it until after my move in a couple months.
I'm moving out of my current home, into a place with my brother Zach, and my friend Yves. Hopefully somewhere close to the CNM campus... for school purposes.
It'll be neat. I'm pretty excited about my younger brother moving up to 'burque.
Too many Oreos make a Josh sick.
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7:35 am - Keep Moving Forward.
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It's become my motto lately. Never mind that I stole it from a kid movie (a damned good kid movie). Whenever I start to get depressed and feeling like I should just let myself stagnate comfortably, I push myself back up (so to speak) and mutter these words. It keeps me truckin'.
But now, work.
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| Monday, February 23rd, 2009
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12:53 pm
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You all may be wondering why I've not posted in a while.
That's largely because... I have little to say. Life's been pretty uneventful. Granted, I did go to the Arizona Renn Fest last week, that was nice. Maybe I'll even post some pictures a little later.
But otherwise... life's droll. Drab. Ever since they put me on the floor at Target (gods I'm hating retail) I've been getting pats on the back damn near every day. I got the Target Pseudo-equivalent to "Employee of the Month" 3 weeks after hitting the floor.
Everyone's like "you do a great job" and while that's rewarding... I just feel like I'm stuck. I need to start school this fall. While I love the people I work with, I'm busting my butt way to hard to maintain the 8.50 an hour I make. Because... let's face it, it's not cool to NOT work hard. Plus, by the time I'm ready to take on another job, I should have plenty of Letters of Recommendation from the Executives of Target.
Cuz I freaking rawk.
I HAVE started playing COD4: Modern Warfare (yeah, I know it's been out for a while now) and that's fun. I fail at it but it's fun.
I've just become a grumpy gus I guess. Damned Kids.
Get of my pocking lawn.
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| Tuesday, January 20th, 2009
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11:33 am
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School is back in session.
Not for me, though I wish it was. No, I failed to get my ass in gear in a timely fashion, and wouldn't have been able to get my classes picked out and signed up and everything early enough for my job to have the forewarning they desire. So I'm taking another semester off (for a whole year of no-school). I am a little bit ashamed, but it might work out for the best. Make myself Indispensable to Target so that way when I do have classes, they'll be willing to work around them without balking.
And indispensable I'm swiftly becoming I think. Most of the "leaders" at the store thing I'm pretty groovy. I work hard (though they've been giving me enough new jobs lately that I seldom know enough to be truly fast) and am willing to learn.
And learn I have been, I worked backroom (which is what I was hired for) pulling items to be stocked on the shelves. Then I was assigned to the overnight crew that takes everything out of one section of the store and rezones it and restocks the shelves. This week and next week I'm working on the floor, stocking shelves, helping customers and filling out "orders" for the backroom to fill.
Everyone thinks I must be important that they're moving me around so much, training me in so many things.
Fine by me, we get our raises in the next couple months. I hope they remember how chill I am when that time comes around.
Comic-Con is being delayed a year. I'm not certain I'll have everything together in time to go... especially since the sidewalls on my tires are splitting, so I have to change those, and do some other maintenance stuff on my car... which is going to drain the savings I had been storing. Which is fine, Juri (who I was going to be going with) said she might not be able to afford it either when the time comes. Robert (my housemate, who was also going) could, but he's just fine with not going.
Target, you better give me a decent raise *shakes fist*
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| Monday, January 12th, 2009
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9:25 pm - Boring crap you probably don't want to read, but I'm typing out anyways.
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In just a few minutes here I will be heading out for my first night in a series of four over-night, 10 hour shifts.
Dun Dun Dun.
So... more funtimes with Buddha Dreams (yay, he's been gone for a while). But nothing mind-bending this time round. Infact, he was downright sarcastic. We'll see if I buy him Dream-world coffee next time. Nothing significant to discuss here.
Also, a couple people have inquired about my quest in getting fit, inquiring after the progress (it amuses me that people even care :-D). Well, given a couple setbacks I had to get over, I am back on the wagon and have made some progress.
So here are a couple pictures for comparison (I advise you not to click, I'm hairy and shirtless).
Old Pic
New 1 and New 2 were taken today. I think there are noticeable improvements. I'm pleased. As for the weight of the free-weights, they're not impressive, but definitely way more impressive than when I first started (I'd rather refrain from giving the numbers as it's still not very high). But I am getting in better shape, feeling better, eating better. And, if I may say so, looking better. Though I need to focus on my legs more, most of my workouts are arms/chest/back related. I don't do enough legs.
That is on the list of improvements.
Anyways, I'm sure I've bored the crap out of yall. I'll let you go back to your scheduled reading and I'll go to work. Ciao.
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2:20 am
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Here I sit, 2, almost 3 in the morning... slightly tired but unable to sleep for two reasons. The first being I'm not *that* tired. The second being that tomorrow night I work from 10pm to 8:30 am. If I went to bed now, I could not make it. Not a chance. No way Jose.
So I'll watch Meet the Robinsons.
Cuz it's a fun movie.
And because I'm bored.
Oooh, I should have some orange juice.
Holycrap! Harland Williams voices the robot! Either that or someone who sounds EXACTLY like him!
It's almost 3! I don't have to make sense!
Yay for no sense!
Maybe later.
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| Monday, December 29th, 2008
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12:04 am
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So, I finally got to see Hancock.
I loved the hell out of it too. It's going to have to be acquired and added to my personal collection.
I dunno why, but I have a fondness for the grumpy-loner type characters. Raphael (TMNT), Wolverine (X-Men) and the like have always been the sorta characters that appeal to me. Maybe because I like to think I'm a grumpy loner type guy.
Even though, I'm not really.
Maybe I just do it in an attempt to justify my frustrations and difficulty with relating to people. Who's to say.
I've been wanting to pick up and read Hagakure again recently.
There are thoughts and ideals within that are worth emulating. Not ALL of it mind you, but there are many passages that the old samurai writes about self improvement... and seeing as the new year is on its way, it's a good time to evaluate oneself I think.
NOT that I'm much of a fan of Resolutions mind you, but the New Year is a good marker... I can look back on the last year and see the self improvements I've made or not made since then (and there are many for both columns) and see what I need to work on further.
Largely, I need to work on my temper, while I don't explosively burst (never have) I still seeth a lot of the time, especially when dealing with 'superiors' for whom the term "shitforbrains" seems to have been crafted... but I wont go into that.
See? Still seething.
So yeah, I do have some things I want to keep in mind and work on, mentally and physically. I've made improvements physically over the last year, but not fast and not like I'd like. But I wound up hurtin myself a couple times during work and getting sick, which set me back quite a bit repeatedly.
This next year I want to be more steadfast about it. More complete. Healthy body, healthy mind.
I've got a lot of work ahead of me, but it's going to be good.
Also, please forgive this post, I'm tired and my brain is muddled, I sound like an idiot I'm quite certain.
Perhaps tomorrow, after work, I'll post something worth reading.
Thank you and Good Night.
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| Friday, December 26th, 2008
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5:43 pm
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Another Update!
And it's not even been a whole month O_O
Gadzooks!
I hope all of yall had a happy holiday. Whatever holiday you celebrate.
Unless you celebrate "char babies for fun" day. Because that's just not right.
Babies should merely be lightly toasted.
My mother, who loves me very much (and I'll explain how I know this) bought my a Sci-Fi Novel and the 4th edition D&D books. As well as one of these.
Useless? Yes, kinda. Am I going to get more?
Yer damn right I am. What a weird, nerdy thing.
Speaking of Nerdy, I waited until after christmas to buy Hellboy2. I waited SO patiently (it was hard) because I wasn't sure if someone was going to buy it for me, and I'd feel like a jerk for ruining the gift or whatever. Noone did... so I happily plunked down the money after work today and am currently watching it. It is like doom-fisted sex.
Maybe not doom-fisted sex. That sounds violent and unpleasant.
I feel like I should make some coffee. I didn't get any this morning. Mmmm coffee.
And eggs... with jalapenos. Good grief I'm hungry. I should make me some.
I love jalapenos.
And Hellboy. And coffee.
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| Thursday, December 11th, 2008
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11:07 pm
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Quick update while I try to trick myself into being tired.
Working at Target is, hmm, interesting. The work is surprisingly hard (I work backroom days, so I'm constantly climbing ladders and moving heavy boxes) which is a good thing. Being backroom I almost never have to deal with customers. The cats in the backroom are pretty alright as well, rather nerdy. I get along with them just fine.
I've just about got things squared away to go to college this upcoming semester. Go me.
I'm trying to be more active in the SCA... and am sorta doing that.
Speaking of SCA, my friends in St. Golias made sure I was able to get down there over the previous weekend so I could celebrate my 24th birthday. The Tynkers were there as well.
I like the Tynkers (for those who know not, they're a group of European-rennasaince era performers - they juggle and play music and dance and things... they're awesomesauce).
I think I'm almost tired. I'm going to have some tea, then sleep.
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